Post by flatulatingmarmoset on Jul 31, 2013 19:58:58 GMT -5
Our friend Tess Lunt died, but in her short time on this earth, she lived. In the last few years, I have spent many a day Krazy glued to the lap top, playing on the internet. I would go on MySpace (not so much these days), Facebook, GoAnimate, Youtube, Twitter (for the last year or so), the IWA Dungeon at Proboards (not so much these days- ditto for Acrochallenge), and once upon a time- a Xena chat. I have practically lived on these places, doing almost nothing all day. I sometimes get a few chores done around the house, but not as much as I used to, and only on a day when I can bang it out in short amount of time between playing on the internet. When my son is home, we sometimes go to the playground...once in a while. Lately, I have been making GoAnimate videos and youtube videos which are all basically crap just to amuse myself, whilst dealing with 27 years of built up depression, paranoia, anxiety, and other mental illnesses. Maybe it is just an excuse to avoid them or just to goof off. I do so, while my wife busts her hump- ifyaknowwhatImean- at work. I was canned at Walmart, because I didn't know how to stand up for myself and when I tried to, it often backfired. Since then, I have lived off of unemployment-which is now gone- and a part time high school janitor gig, which hours are limited in the summer because of my wife's work schedule and my son's summer school schedule and him being off. I had to cash out two 401Ks, scrap my minivan and collect cans which amount to nothing. We sold some puppies, that helped a little with the bills. Tess is gone. No more seeing her at Subway or the care center. She lived her life, and did it as best she possibly could. It ended with a brain hemorrhage. My uncle Merle was diagnosed with Alzheimer's at 60. Several of my school and classmates are dead. Life is short, unpredictable and unfair. It is time to get off my duff and get back out to doing what I used to do. After all, I could step out the door and get hit by a lighting bolt tomorrow, or get hit by a truck today. Take care.